Happy Wednesday! I've had a nice long break from blogging - soaking up some last minute autumn sun over fall break and then coming home to paper after paper after paper. Welcome to the life of an English major. One of my top cites is currently citationmachine.net...
glorious, glorious day.
On a different note, I'd like to take some time to talk about rest.
Over fall break I had the chance to take a nice long road trip down east. It was just me & Jon (my sweet boyfriend who complains about never getting shout-outs, HERE IT IS! xo) visiting my Dad over the break. The three of us cooked, piddled around down town, spent the evenings on the dock watching the sun se and the rest of the time watching lots and lots of football.
A few things here -
1. I did not bring my computer or any semblance of homework, really.
2. I did not use any form of social media during the break.
3. My phone spent most of the time off. Like completely shut down.
I can't even use words to describe how purely good it was to take time away from these things. (But of course, I'm going to try :)
There are so many times when I get completely fed up with all of it - the constant presence of my phone - the texts, alerts, likes, posts, re-posts, links, emails. There are days where I'd love to chuck my phone off the side of Rough Ridge and forget about all of it. I do truly wish that texting did not exist. However, it's here and sort of convenient and I've got to learn how to properly control it - using it to connect but not as a substitute for raw words that need to be spoken and heard. That's hard sometimes.
--which calls for a break and a time to rest.
rest = disconnection from everything except where my feet are
Meaning - a disconnect from what's going on everywhere else, a disconnection from virtual conversations with people who aren't actually with me right now and a focus on who I'm actually sitting next to.
(Side Note: It hurts my heart a little to see two friends in a coffee shop sitting side-by-side scrolling Instagram. It stings even more when I find myself being that friend. When did that become okay? Let's stop being those people!)
I have learned that it is crucial to have some type of rest every single day. Rest that focuses on the present - whether that be a meaningful conversation with a friend, a walk in the woods, or even just twenty minutes of driving and listening to beautiful music - we have the opportunity in these moments to reach that state of rest. That focus on where our feet are for just a few minutes will then become a way of life.
During our visit, if I found myself thinking and stressing about future events, I would remind myself to be fully here. And as the moments passed, I found myself feeling more and more content to rest in being present.
As I drove back up to school that Sunday, I found myself beginning to dread the upcoming weeks of assignments and obligations. Feeling that nagging stress surfacing as I drove and seeing texts and emails start to filter in on my phone, I realized that I had a choice to make. I could choose to live in a state of rest - being present no matter what the circumstance - or in a state of perpetual worry and discontent.
Which one do you think the Lord desires of us? After all, his burden is light.